Black and Blue (Sarah)

Sarah wasn't sure how to bring herself out of the funk that she was in or how to tear herself from this awful and awkward situation. She kept flashing back to her and Macht, and then in her mind replaced it with Vivi who had been with her instead of Sarah, which surprisingly felt more natural, it felt more right than what had happened in place of that. She was an anomoly in this situation, she was the one who had fucked things up.

"You're...? D-dont' apologize, It's not your fault. This is... just how things played out." Sarah was crying and didn't really know what to do to make things better. She wanted to break things off with Macht, she wanted to undo the other night, she wanted to let this girl beat her up more than she had. The pain in her body went from a happy pain to a sad one in no time and she wasn't sure how to react to that. "I just... don't know what to do."

"I... I don't know either," She said as she rocked slightly. She pulled her hands away from her face so that she could instead hug her legs tight to her body. She looked over at the girl despite every part of her body screaming not to look her way, "I don't want to be with him if it means hurting you, I don't want to be with him if he likes someone else, I don't want to be with someone who feels compelled to stay with me because of..."

She shook her head, "Because of a mistake." That had been the part that hurt her the worst in this whole thing, the fact that Macht felt compelled to stay with her, like he couldn't leave her right now because of whatever reason. It implied that he was somehow stuck and that didn't sit well with Sarah, "I don't know what to do either..."

"We don't necessarily know that though I mean..." Sarah thought about it for a little bit and she had heard of situations like poly relationships and stuff but knew that this girl was probably never able to do anything like that. Sarah wasn't so sure she could either, not with how much she needed some sort of stability. Maybe if she had her own stability or something. Otherwise it was pretty much a hopeless cause.

Yeah, that wasn't an option for anyone involved.

"I just don't want... I so don't want you to be hurt you know? I... I guess that's already too late." She looked over and despite her body pulling and rejecting the movement, she would reach out and hug the girl tightly. Sarah would still be crying a little bit as she did.

"I'm so so sorry," she told Vivi before she would pull away. "If there's anything you need for me to help. If you need me to leave you alone, or if you need me to just not bring up stuff with him around you, you can let me know. I will respect those needs okay?"

Vivi seemed to tense up but her body felt more into the hug just before Sarah felt the comfort of being hugged back. She took solace in it even though she wasn't the one who was truly hurt by all of this. She tried to imagine how Vivi must have felt, how Macht might have felt, and once released she listened to the girl explain her feelings a bit more. She didn't really agree that she brought it on herself, it just sort of happened like she had said before. A shitty situation.

"Nah... running away from my problems and pretending they don't exist is no way to deal with'em. I just need to learn to accept things as they are. I appreciate it though, Sarah. You're so kind..."

"That's fair," Sarah said, "You've been really nice too."

"I'm glad that Macht has you. You'll make him happy."

"Maybe," She said with a small grin while meeting the girls eyes with her own, "I just want good things to happen to him. If I'm one of those good things I'd be pretty happy about that even if things don't work out in the end. You know?"

Sarah wasn't really sure where to go from here but she knew that she needed to speak with Macht about this. But before that she'd probably head home, maybe check in with her mom since she hadn't seen her in a few days though they had texted the night before a little bit.

"I think I'm gonna head home, are you alright here?" Sarah asked with an apologetic look. She didn't want to ditch the girl but she wanted to talk to her mom about the situation and sort out some stuff. "Oh uhm... I understand if you don't feel comfortable doing so but... I'm comfortable with you and so calling me Louie would be totally kosher. I think, I mean if you aren't comfortable I understand but... I think I'd like that."

"Well, we all have flaws. I just hope he can see the good things about himself," She replied. It was kind of nice of him to train all the people that he could and the truth of the matter was that he was definitely something of a positive influence on her life already.

"Yeah, yeah, if you need to go home and get some rest you should by all means, And sure, I'll call you Louie. It's a cute nickname."

"Thanks! Yeah it's the short version of my middle name, Louise." She remembered going by it as a little kid because there were two girls with the name Sarah in her class though spelled differently and rather than 'Sarah with an h' she wanted to be Louise... only she hadn't said it right, she always said Louie. Hence, Louie. "And yeah, I probably should get heading."

"Sorry about roughing you up so bad, by the way. Take it easy, alright?"

"Not at all! Really, I asked for it and I'm glad that you did. My skin should toughen up pretty good from all this and I'm starting to get used to the pain of being hit." She gave a small wave, "Let's do this again some time, or maybe even just some light sparring or training? Hell, even just going for coffee or on a friend date would be nice. I'll text you!"

Sarah kept the cool pack, making sure she had everything before giving a short hug to Vivi, hoping that it was alright, and then heading to grab the rest of her things from Gym. Hopefully the bus ride would be smooth.