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Welcome delinquents to PHS #552. A few reminders, no rough housing, no running in the hallways, no cheating, and no talking back to your teachers. Beyond that, enjoy yourselves. After all these are the years you’ll look back on, and remember, you mother fuckers peaked too early.
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Public Highschool #552 was rebooted by Xereon and Aether. Content is copyrighted to PHS #552 unless otherwise stated. The skin is created by Wolf of Gangnam Style. The board and thread remodel is by Kagney and has been heavily edited. Banner Image Credit. Chatbox Credit
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COME IN COME ALL AND WATCH THE SPECTACULAR STUDENTS FROM PUBLIC HIGH SCHOOL 552 AS THEY PIT AGAINST EACH OTHER IN BAREKNUCKLE BEATDOWN! Watch as students go toe to toe on this little tournament with an unbelievable budget allocation! See them bite each other in arena made of LEGOS! Make each other bleed in an artificial JUNGLE!, even go as far as making them break bones under an artificial STORM! Really, HOW BIG IS THE BUDGET ON THIS SHIT! SO PLACE OUR BETS AND GO WATCH BAREKNUCKLE BEATDOWN NOW!
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A brand new group is on the making, The Apostles, a Pillar-like group led by none other than our brand new headmaster, Gregoire Girard. A student body that would lead students and enforce the law on this little school of ours. Little is still known about this student body, but who knows? It might just be what the school needs.
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A lunch box is seen last Friday, around 12:37:08pm with an encouraging note packed inside. This appalling display that utterly lacked manliness has left many students stunned and outrage, as some decided, after a long while, to speak out against it.
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Post by Rire-chan on Mar 28, 2016 8:07:20 GMT -5
BETA CHALLENGE
Alright. You know it, and your mother probably knows as well. The Beta spot in the Enkauston left a gaping hole in our hearts, as all of us fight hysterically to obtain it. Therefore, there's really nothing better than a mass Beta challenge that allows everyone to exercise their writing skills once in a while. The winner will get the beta special item, a +11 item, (up-gradable to +15 with a simple charge of $999.99)
Since everyone can probably recite the rules by heart... [ *furiously throws the link for rules in here* ], let's jump straight into the challenge! After some rules!
Other rules > Story must be in character. > Post your story in this thread. > Your story cannot be plagiarized. > Follow the prompt. > You can't trade the prize. > Enter with the character you want the prize for. > Please keep em PG 13. > There are no maximum/minimum word count limit. > Everyone automatically gets 3exp for entering. and maybe more if you put in extra effort in your writing wink wonk > If more than 5 people join, the second place will get the Delta (4th), which is a pretty sweet +7 item.
detailsPrompt : 00. Zombie Apocalypse. 01. Bubblegum 02. A Born Coward 03. Emperor's New Clothes 04. Guns and Roses
Deadline : 1st April 12am, CST time.
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Post by Kazuya Hikari on Mar 28, 2016 14:25:07 GMT -5
He never saw it coming. Then again, no one ever really does see a zombie apocalypse coming... until it's too late. Even now, the entire situation felt so surreal, like he was in a nightmare that he could never wake up from. But this was no nightmare, and there was no waking up to safer times. This was his reality, and he would have to fight to survive. Though the rooftop parking of the shopping mall he had set up shop on had been infested with the walking dead, Kazuya had managed to slice and dice his way through with his trusty katana by hi side, and reach the rooftop access, the parking lot clear of the infected, thankfully. Crouching behind the planks he had taken from a nearby janitor's closet he had set up, making a makeshift barrier of sorts, over at the building with the elevators leading down to the lower floors, his barrier blocked the only entrance and exit point into and out of the building onto the parking lot. If any zombies came shambling out, this barrier was the only thing between them and him... and his ally. Casting a brief glance at his car parked nearby, which was now a makeshift refuge of sorts, he could just barely make out the outline of Sophia, who was sleeping inside.
His grip tightening on his katana, he was determined to make sure no zombies would lay even a single decomposing finger on her, and was ready to take on whatever came their way... and hold them off if needed be. It had a certainly been a surprise though, when he stumbled upon her in the mall, in the middle of the zombie invasion. Her laziness had been evident from the moment he cut down a group of zombies, seeing her standing idly in the middle of the circle as the zombies shambled towards her, to pile down on and overwhelm her. She hadn't even batted an eye or reacted to anything, from the zombies themselves, to him swiftly slicing one in half, then grabbing her hand and pulling her away from the zombies that tried to swipe at her. Left with no other choice, Kazuya had quickly scooped her up in his arms, and hightailed it towards the rooftop access doors. Fighting and fleeing for your life was a very good motivator to make you run faster than you thought you ever could. At least the parking lot was clear and quiet... relatively speaking. With Sophia safely inside his car, the doors locked, Kazuya had the only means of getting into the car from the outside without setting the car alarm off... the car keys nestled inside his jeans pocket.
Time... He didn't even bother to keep track of it, it was moving so slowly, why bother to even look? The entire world before him was a nightmare, one he wanted to wake up from desperately. His eyes constantly on the move, he would not let anyone... or anything, reach her. He would protect her with every fiber of his being. During his guard watch, a few emerged, observing the environment, but generally more interested in the noise and conflict down below on ground level. Cautiously peering around, every so often, he would rise up slowly, his muscles aching from staying in his crouched position for so long, and would stretch his arms and legs out, to avoid his muscles from cramping up. The city having steadily grown darker overtime, pulling a flashlight out, Kazuya flicked it on, keeping the light low as much as possible. Though it was quiet, moaning that would make a grown adult pull the blankets over their head and tremble in fear could be heard, the occasional scream of pain punctuating the low growling and moaning every now and then, though Kazuya blocked those out. This was a new world, a new environment, and either you fight and live for as long as you could... or end up dying. Each and every single person had to fend for themselves out there, lest they be teared asunder by the zombies that made up the majority of the population in the city.
As for Kazuya... he would fight. Fight to preserve not only his life... but the life of the young woman inside his car, who was so lazy, she made a three-toed sloth look active. Still, even if she was more a liability than an asset, he would protect her. Logic was out the window. Instincts and survival was all that mattered.
Welcome to San Francisco... The Walking Dead City.
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Post by `Alvari on Mar 29, 2016 1:38:54 GMT -5
There was no way he could have planned this any better.
Kevin stood with his back to a double-door. A long, solid and thick metal pipe was jammed in between both doors' handles. He stood at the end of a service corridor, the door behind him serving as the only maintenance entry into the Downtown subway station. It could have been silent if it wasn't for the thunderous beating of his heart, a pipe dripping onto the cement floor down the halls, and a frenzied banging on the other side of the door. There was enough force to rattle the pipe that served as a barricade between Kevin and the force that desperately wanted to break through. Through frayed hair hanging over his line of sight, hazel eyes glared at the door over his shoulder with disdain. "Just quit tryin', already!" Kevin screamed at the top of his lungs before gritting his teeth.
After taking a deep breath, Kevin tugged at the ends of a well-worn and filthy black tee, trying to relieve some of his anxiety about the matter. The door continued to rumble and rattle against the force that was applied to it from the other side. There was the long corridor ahead, dark and winding. Kevin heard a round of incoherent screaming and shrieking through the door; he couldn't make out words, but responded in kind. "JUST GO SOMEWHERE ELSE!" There was a moment where Kevin simply stared at the door, anxiety and nerves welling up.
Then he heard the howls. Those guttural, ominous cries.
Kevin swallowed dry air, a sense of urgency welling up in him as he dug into the pockets of his tattered and distressed blue jeans. Hard, chapped and calloused hands managed to fish out a silver rectangular lighter. He was almost out of time...Kevin uncovered the lighter and placed his thumb to the flint wheel as if to start a flame, but then closed the top. Both hands took turns while the empty hand furiously scrubbed against his ragged denim to dry them. His left hand grazed the fabric for only a short moment before he drew it back. He winced as he examined his palm---he agitated a wound. A series of punctures sat along the butt of Kevin's palm in an oblong, semi-circular pattern. He turned his hand over to see similar marks. They were bite marks...roughly the size one could expect from a human. The wounds themselves were incredibly dark, looking almost charred. The flesh surrounding it was yellowed and terrifyingly swollen.
Another loud trembling came from the door as Kevin overheard more feral screams in the distance. Kevin's eyes darted back and forth between the door and the corridor ahead, his view of which consisted of examining the walls. They were slick and damp. A satisfied grin crept across Kevin's face as he wiped his sweaty brow with his forearm. That smile faded quickly when the door rattled once again. "Jesus," he shouted in response. There was yet another crash against the door, only this time more vehement and with enough power to shift the pipe that held it shut. "Dammit!" Kevin heard growling and it only grew more intense as whatever attempted to break through the door continued to beat and bang against it. Only this time, it wouldn't end. Fervently, it shook and rattled in rapid succession before it came to an abrupt stop. Kevin almost believed it was over and returned his attention to the hallway in front of him, preparing for what lay ahead.
His train of thought was cut short when the double doors parted.
Kevin almost broke his neck looking backwards. To his horror, his barrier between himself and the subway station was gone---almost. The pipe remained, although it bent under the stress of the door bursting open on it. As a result, The door was only partially ajar. He witnessed that which tried so hard to break through, and the sight There he was, pale, afraid and desperate as Kevin and Anthony locked eyes from each side of the door. "Kevin!" Anthony shouted. "Kevin, don't do this! We can...we can figure out something! Maybe there's a treatment, a cure! We can get out of here! We can escape together! You don't have to---is that..."
"...Kevin, is that the gasoline?"
Anthony caught sight of two canisters of fuel that were apparently empty. A weak smile made its way along Kevin's features. Sure, there may have been a cure...unfortunately for him, they likely wouldn't find it in time to save Kevin. He was changing, he knew that the infection would take him before an opportunity to save himself became a possibility. He and Anthony promised to protect themselves and anyone they came across at any cost. On Anthony's side of the door was a small but resilient band of survivors that didn't want to die. The grunts and groans of the infected horde that gave chase reminded Kevin of what was on his side. A lumbering pack of walking dead threatened the survival of the few friends Kevin had. He took one more look at his left hand as he still held the lighter in his right, glancing down at his clothes. The walls were soaked with gasoline, and so were his clothes. "Y'know," Kevin began as he turned his back to his comrade. "You should just...get the fuck outta here and go plant a fuckin' rose." Kevin would protect him and the rest of them all the way to the end and he knew that he was no use to them alive. With his thumb, Kevin flipped the top off of the lighter. He heard Anthony screaming for him, begging him to reconsider. However, the sounds of the horde grew louder, footsteps now audible as one, two, and now several turned a corner and advanced on the two. Anthony was trembling, hollering for his friend one more time...but when he saw Kevin's thumb rest upon the flint wheel, he shut the door behind him.
Kevin lit the flame and had one moment to admire the flame before it consumed everything.
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Post by Melanie Rose on Mar 31, 2016 21:56:15 GMT -5
I pressed my face against the window. It was what I did everyday around this time. I'd stare into the window at those beautiful, luscious, delightful candies on their little stands. Everyday I watched the owner put the candies on display, and everyday, he'd swat at me and I'd run off. Everyday it was the same and I'd have to leave without candy. Everyday, i'd run home with nothing.
One day, I was walking home and had decided to skip the store. I didn't want to see old man Skivers waving his cane at me today. I just wanted to go straight home and sit in front of the TV for a few hours before I dragged myself to the dinner table and then up to bed. I just wanted one day where I didn't have to see the old man angry at me. My mom was slightly surprise to see me home so early but she said nothing about it. The next few days passed the same way: I came straight home from school and sat in front of the TV. Everyday got better and better. I even found a few cents on the sidewalk one time. I stooped to pick them up and then skipped home without a second thought.
A few weeks past and I decided to stop by the store to see if anything had changed. After all, this time I had a few coins I could spend and maybe get something. I walked past the corner of the first street and saw the old man standing outside his shoppe. I sighed heavily and kept walking. His eyes shifted to me when I was about half way to his shoppe. I faltered in my steps and tripped over my shoelaces. He ran out and caught me before I fell. I looked up at him as I clung onto his shirt sleeve. Why was he helping me? Was it just because I was falling and he reacted on instinct? That was when I saw his eyes. They were not the eyes I expected, they were soft, worried, and kind. Who was this man who had caught me? Surely he could not be the man I had known? His eyes brimmed with tears and threatened to overflow. He looked down at me the way my father used to. He looked down at me the way a father looked at his child.
"Are you alright, Melanie?" "Why are you-" He cut me off, worry brimming his tone as he pulled me into a hug. "I was so worried about you when you just disappeared. You didn't come by but I had expected you to drop by the next day or the day after. When you didn't, I got so worried. I was afraid something had happened to you." "I... I just went home. You were always so mean to me, so I stopped coming around. I only came by today because I found a couple coins and thought I might be able to buy something." "Come inside, Melanie. I have something for you." He went behind the counter and disappeared behind a curtain before reappearing with a large basket filled with all kinds of treats. "I put this together because I thought you weren't coming back. I wasn't sure if it was illness or something worse, but either way, I am happy to see you again. Please take this home with you today."
He smiled kindly as his hands shook lightly. My own hands reached out gingerly and took hold of the basket. I looked back up at him and smiled a little unsure but thankful none the less. I wasn't sure what had come over him. I had only been gone for three weeks. What made him think I was hurt or worse? What was it that made him care?
"I was just worried about you, that's all. I want you to know I am sorry I was so mean to you before. Please forgive me."
He smiled brighter and moved to hold the door for me so I could walk home. I turned and smiled back at him as I was about to turn the corner. He was still standing in the doorway to his store smiling, the brightest I have ever seen from him, and waving. I beamed back quickly before racing home and showing the basket to my mom. Just inside the top was a large packet of bubblegum. I would keep it on top my dresser for years after as a reminder to never assume a person is always the same. Everyone can change, it's just a question of when and for what reason.
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Post by Vivi Perish on Mar 31, 2016 22:56:47 GMT -5
Perhaps it all depended on memory association. Red could be a charming color, or it could be unsettling.
The world around Vivi would’ve been entirely black if it weren’t for the light the moon and stars provided. But even then, the cemetery was still dark. Vivi sat in the grass near a particular grave and stared at the flower she’d placed in front of it. Not a fancy bouquet. Just a single red rose settled in front of the pale grave stone. The past day it was as if the only colors she could see were silvery grey and red. Images burned to the back of her eye lids of weapons and a red flower. After all, that’s what surrounded Valentine as she died. Roses arranged neatly all over the parlor, and the gleaming metal of Velour's gun.
Two objects that could be perfectly normal, tainted by an ornery event.
Vivi pulled her knees up to her chest and rested her chin on her knees. No one believed her when she told them who did it. It was her big sister. Now typically when one thought of a mean big sister, they might just think of the two girls quarreling with each other. Maybe some slapping and hair pulling. So Vivi thought Velour didn’t really count as a mean big sister. She was something else. But evil felt like a little too dramatic of a word. Maybe delusional?
Moving to stand up, Vivi pulled a gun from the rim of her pants. The cold metal burned against her skin like ice and caused an odd glimmering light to trickle across the grass in front of her. Velour had sworn she’d kill her and Valentine. Vivi was next. This was the third try wasn’t it? Definitely not the first time her sister had tried to harm her. But this would be the last time. One of them would die tonight. Who that would be was up to time and luck.
Were you never told how cruel the world could be? Didn’t anyone ever tell you that?
Waste of air...
Should’ve killed you...
Disgusting.
Naive...
I’d pay to watch you rot in hell.
Vivi’s arms shook and she grit her teeth. Any moment now and she’d see that pale face in the moon light. Those knowing eyes piercing her skull. The grass crunched behind her and Vivi whirled around, holding out her gun.
Velour stood behind her, just a good few yards away. Her gun was also raised. A casual smile rested on her lips and she tilted her head to the side. She was ever the favorite child and had all the good qualities a parent could ask for. Beautiful. Smart. Helpful. And it was like she absorbed the talent of a whole neighborhood when she was born. Velour was so gracefully herself and everyone loved her because of it. But Vivi saw her in a different light.
“I love you. Just thought you should know. I loved Valentine too. ...I love my whole family, and that’s why I’ve got to do this.”
A moment of silence.
“You two were holding us back.”
“Didn’t you feel anything?” Vivi asked.
“What?”
“When you shot her.”
“No.”
“Not surprised.”
“In our walk of life, the good girls are bound to die,” Velour sighed, “Sadly I’ve gotta take you out for a different reason. I wouldn’t exactly describe someone like you as a 'good girl'…”
She took a few steps forward.
“Maybe 'a little mistake' is a bit more accurate.”
“Mistake. Never heard that one before.”
Another silence followed, and all that could be heard were the two girl's quiet breaths.
“Please... let go Vivi,” Velour practically whispered this time, “Valentine’s dead. Kaya’s dead. Mother’s on my side, father wont even acknowledge you. This is you're last chance to do something helpful.”
She came closer and pressed the cold barrel of her gun against Vivi’s forehead.
“You’re better off dead. Maybe then the pain will end, too? It's a win on both sides”
Vivi felt the arm raising her gun begin to weaken.
“Of all the people that could’ve destroyed me…” her voice came out in a hoarse whisper, and she slowly lowered her gun.
“Why did it have to be you...?”
Click.
“I’m helping you. I swear.”
A bright flash, and that was it. Vivi's run was over, and it was more peaceful than she ever could have hoped.
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Post by Rire-chan on Apr 8, 2016 15:13:30 GMT -5
Dangit, i forgot. Sorry guys! I'll leave this up for another day or a bit over 24 hours, and you guys are free to edit your posts till then, or submit new ones!
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Post by Gino Reisi on Apr 10, 2016 12:11:23 GMT -5
"A rose by any other name would smell just as sweet, a gun by any other name would kill just the same." His hands grip onto a bouquet, an assortment of red roses in full bloom bursting with passion, a splash of color standing out against his monochrome attire. Gino had asked for the roses to still have their thorns when he bought them, and as he tightens his grip he can feel sharp pricks against his palms, the only barrier between skin and thorn only a flimsy piece of plastic. It stings lightly, like the pinprick of a needle that has yet to loosen its pressure in his skin, but Gino doesn't make any move to loosen his grip.
For him, roses have always been associated with their thorns. After all, beautiful things always did have to sting. ( If it didn't hurt a bit, how did he know it was real? )
He looks down at the bouquet; twelve in all, some blooming and some not quite there, all a brilliant shade of scarlet, looking like satin or velvet– the epitome of classy with just a tinge formal, something that should be seen in confessions of love or romantic dinners.
This isn't anything like that though, unless one wants to look at things from glasses that give you only a convoluted point of view– Then maybe, just maybe, if one squints and looks by the side, they might see this as a confession, as something almost romantic.
Probably not though.
He raises his free hand, his right one, and moves or over the petals absently to caress the velveteen feel of them before they'll be relinquished from his grasp. Brown eyes the color of hazel wood look down at the flowers almost fondly, before they raise to fall upon an oak door and his free hand clenches into a fist to knock upon the wood.
The sound of his knock is clear, reverberates throughout the entrance and probably the living quarters inside, and Gino makes an absent note to get these kind of doors next time. They're nice, and he likes the crisp sound of a fist on the wood. ( Add on that perhaps it won't make an absolute cacophony of noise when the police eventually knock on his door for something he did prior. )
When the door opens, Gino is effectively snapped out of his thoughts. ( It didn't make any creaking sounds, all he felt was a burst of cold air from the AC– Really good door, damn. ) His brown eyes look down to meet an older woman's blue ones, and he inclined his head once in greeting to her as he waits for the recognition to overtake her.
"Oh! Is that little Gino? You've grown into such a handsome young man– Now, are you finally here to visit little old me?"
There's a concealed panic in her eyes though, barely there but enough of a tell to further solidify Gino's theory that she was one of the perpetrators. He doesn't act on that yet though, instead, he raises the bouquet of roses up silently.
"They're for you." He confesses, his lips quirking up in a friendly smile as he hands them to her. A knot in her shoulders loosen, tension barely noticeable now released, and Gino watches as she gives him a happy sigh to accept. "Aren't they your favorite, Aunt Rosa?"
"They are." She muses in return, blue eyes alight with fondness as she handles the flowers. Her long fingers play with the petals while her free arm carries the roses like a child. Gino doesn't move, brown eyes intent on Rosa as she cusses over the bouquet before it inevitably pricks her. She curses lightly, and a frown mars her jaded features as she turns up to look at Gino.
"Why didn't you cut off the thorns, Gino?"
His answer is easy, something prepared from a script as he moves his hand back to feel the comforting weight of his gun. To undo the safety is easy even if he can't see it himself, relying on touch an easy thing, only muscle memory with the amount of times he's done this. When he pulls out his caliber to point it at Rosa, his face is blank and hard, something that could be chiseled from stone.
"Because my mom liked them that way." He answers breezily, "You know that. You sent us roses with thorns when she died after all."
Gino sees Rosa pale, and he finally smiles something true but not at all kind. His grin is manic and chaotic, small on his face but promising nothing but danger and ruin. He doesn't normally have much an opinion on killing, it's just a way to survive that Gino has had to follow sometimes– But this, seeing one of the people that betrayed his mother by telling the enemy her favorite places to take her away?
It's not enjoyment that courses through him when he pulls the trigger, because that would be psychopathic and sadistic. Instead, he would call it a deep sense of satisfaction, something that runs deep in his veins as he watches a dark haired woman by the name of Rosa Alberti slump with roses still in her arms. Gino is remembering phone calls and nights staring at a screen, trying to figure out how exactly they found his mother in the first place to kill her. Sora Reisi was always illustrious. Her schedule easy to remember but not easy to know. So, it wasn't too hard to piece together a list of suspects who could have spilled the metaphorical beans when there weren't many people with that knowledge to begin with.
Figures it was the close friend who was secretly in love with her husband.
Gino takes in the scene one more time before he leaves though. Well. He takes a moment to lament over the blood now staining that remarkable door, making a mental note to take that thing for his own before he returns back to America. He doesn't look down from the door until a few seconds has passed, and when he does, he's struck with a sight he doesn't know is beautiful or extremely morbid. ( Actually, he'd go for both. )
The roses have fallen out of her arms onto the ground beside her, laying in a growing pool of blood from her head wound. Some of the roses are crushed from the fall, petals all strewn about in a haphazard way that could almost be considered abstractly beautiful, floating on the blood. The colors match, red and red, blood and roses.
He slowly pockets his gun and walks away, because his deed is done and Gino isn't eager to wait for someone to walk by and see him.
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Post by Liv Carole on Apr 13, 2016 21:11:48 GMT -5
HI I AM HERE TO SHOVE THIS PROMPT IN AT THE DEADLINE SO I'LL TAKE THE 3 POINT DEDUCTION BUT I DID INCLUDE IZEL IN THIS STORY WHO IS A CHARACTER ON THE BOARD. INTERPRET THAT AS YOU LIKE. THANK YOU RIRE.
OH YEAH TRIGGER WARNING BY THE WAY
And she, was just born a coward.
It was the rotting smell of chemicals and burnt hair, reeking through the bottom of Liv's tightly shut door which never, ever managed to keep out the nightmares. Instead the red head continued to shut herself inside the room, taking painstaking care to fix her makeup instead of trailing down to find out just exactly what those mysterious thumps were.
She never questioned the bruises on her unconscious mother.
Liv's fingers shook as she struggled to apply the powder foundation, unwilling tear marks slipping down and ruining her shaky progress. Things were supposed to be different. The trip abroad was supposed to bring the girl into fruition, show her that there was more to her small, closed-off world than the sallow smells of meth and stoned men. Had her father not hoped to rehabilitate his daughter with the fresh air he himself had found to be the perfect solution to ignoring his wife's infidelity? A glass shattering noise echoed up the stairwell and Liv felt her heart leap into her throat. She was not afraid. She was not afraid. And if her mother realized that her source of addiction had been crushed on the wood floors so what? How could this ever be tied back to her only child? Liv was blameless in this situation but her panic did not alleviate no matter the logic she tried to apply. Overwhelmed by the tidal waves of misery, the girl could only let the makeup clatter onto her vanity before leaning into her hands.
Voices clamored together in an angered unison, and Liv could hear them storming up the stairs to crucify her. It was a moment of serene calm, comparable to when one rests their head upon the guillotine, staring out into the crowd of expectant, bloodthirsty citizens. Liv would find no mercy in this household.
"Isadora!"
Slowly, she began to lift her face from her hands, but it was yanked back with a fistful of hair attached to her scalp. The scourge commenced, the girl unable to do anything but throw herself onto her knees and pray. But god had abandoned the world long ago, and Liv had no deity, no divine force left to plead to.
"Give it to me, I know you have it!"
Liv whimpered silently, clutching to the base of her hair to prevent it from being ripped out of her scalp.
Oh yes, she was a coward.
"I don't have it! You're hurting me!"
The words fell on deaf ears, the beggar crying out to the endless sequence of people strolling down the street. Her mother was raving, dragging the girl out in a fury of limbs and clawing hands. It was a scene typical to an abusive situation, one throwing their weight around to muscle a much weaker second, normally involving the use of external objects as anchors. Liv felt her resistance swell slightly, hands wrapping around dusty stairwell beams, but ripped away with a force that threatened to break her nails.
"I know you do; I know you do; I know you do; It's you; It's you; It's you!"
Liv's hair was released, and immediately she scrambled to her side, trying to get to her feet and rush elsewhere. This situation had been building over the course of a week, an exorcism that was meant to purge the girl of her demons. No matter how her mother might pray, the excursion never saved her daughter. A heavy force hit Liv from behind, knocking the wind out of her. She landed flat on her front, bruising her unguarded ribs. A familiar form was on her back, their hands clawing at her shirt, wrestling to tear it off and dig underneath Liv's skin to find what they were looking for. Burning pain streaked down her back and the woman suffered her frenzy, shredding Liv's shirt and then forcing the girl to bend her back to eliminate some of the pain caused by her hair being ripped backwards.
"They're coming, Isadora! Why? Why are they here? I-In the walls. I hear them. In the walls!"
Her mother's grip grew slack as the woman stared around the parlor in a daze, eyes roaming listlessly over the peeling walls. Liv gasped underneath her, abdomen crushed and heart fluttering in her throat. Her mother stood up slowly, murmuring under her breath as she slowly came close to one of the walls, palm up. Leaning close, the woman placed her hand flat on the wall, ear placed beside it with her eyes closed. Liv stood slowly, trying to quiet her breathing. Stepping back quietly, she stalked to the door before fleeing down the hallway. Footstep after footstep, Liv nearly flung herself around the doorway-
And collided into someone.
The blood in her veins chilled, temperature flaring high enough to melt the skin from her muscle. It was over for Liv now. A tall man stood in front of her, having recently awoken by his mussed hair and sleepy expression. His reaction was slow, but upon seeing the middle school girl with her attention-grabbing orange hair, a cruel grin spread across his face.
"Oh? Isadora, it's not every day you throw yourself into my arms."
His hand swiped underneath her chin, bringing her face up into the light. The girl wept bitterly, lips pursed in utter frustration and body tight with resistance. He leaned closer, crooning in her face.
"I never give you anything you don't want."
Jerking back from the man, Liv threw her hands up to her face, covering it as she began to sob freely. Snarling, the man's hand latched onto her shoulder and yanked her into the room, the doorjamb hitting the inside of her knee brutally. The girl's small body collapsed at the unexpected blow, but the man would have none of it.
I never asked for this.
Angry now, his hand managed to rip off the tatters of her shirt, taking off whatever was underneath it as well. Liv sobbed aloud, trying to find some kind of sense in the rabid man. In the story of her life, no variable ever changed, and her voice was never heard. Her waist became bare, unwelcome hands clinging to places Liv wished would just rot off her body and never grow back.
I just want to die.
"If you keep crying, I swear I'll give you something to cry about."
Sobs muffled in her chest, hands ripped from her face, Liv had nothing to hide herself with, just an empty desolation of having her own identity ripped from her.
Why won't you let me die?
Naked and alone, the girl lay behind the living room couch, staring at the moonlight streaming in the open windows. Her fingers splayed across disrupted it's flow, casting a shadow wherever she moved them. Funny, normally she would be living in the shadow, not casting it.
Liv screamed, throwing another bottle across the small apartment, upturning the table next before swinging a wild punch at the next closest thing. The skin on her knuckles split, hair caught in her mouth and clinging to her wet cheeks. Barely able to breathe, unable to think underneath the desperate swimming to stay afloat from the flashback, she turned and staggered to the kitchen, ripping open the fridge, and then the cupboard. Raiding the cabinets, bitter tears streamed from her cheeks, a hollow feeling caving her chest in. The memories hardly ever came back, but when they returned it was never without a vengeance.
"I d-didn't do anything! To deserve... this!"
Pulling out cases of stockpiled alcohol bought in bundles by the dozen, Liv dropped them onto her kitchen table, frenzied and panicked. Popping the first bottle open, she drank in hearty gulps, trying to end the suffering somewhere. It wasn't acting fast enough, the girl considering mixing it with other substances to blackout immediately.
She stood outside the shop in utter numbness, completely lovestruck with grief.
Liv cried out, hands clinging and scrabbling at the sides of her head.
"Please! No... no more..."
If only she had hands that could reach across time, brush them against the cheek of her lover, of Izel, oh how she could die in peace. If just once more, Liv could truly face her with everything she'd ever meant to say, all the ways to show "I love you."
Collapsed on the floor, her hands weakly pulled at the chair legs, curling around them as she sobbed and wheezed past her tears. The bottle lay discarded on the floor, a bitter solution dribbling out onto the floor. Reaching up slightly, Liv's slim fingers grappled at the edge of the table, trying to fish down another bottle.
If I wasn't such a coward! If I could just meet you! If those men hadn't ruined me first!
Liv felt her heart sieze up, fingers twitching before her entire arm dropped down at her side. The girl was motionless, eyes wide, but her entire body trembled with a panic-induced seizure, momentarily going blind from the stress.
... If only I wasn't a killer...
Liv felt an acute sharpness in the back of her head, completely separate from her panic. It was clear and isolated from her duress, a sense of a lock snapping in two. Thoughts- no scenarios- no memories, all began flooding in, blood weeping from men who's faces held shock and the slack grip that meant life was fading.
She had done that. Liv had ended their lives.
Fear. It was the driving instinct that continued to burn out with every murder, every man, a feeling of utter emotionless festering within her, soon to bloom into a jaded chill.
You killed them, because you are a coward.
What was she to do? What if Liv had watched that man whom her father trusted with every painstakingly built finance stab the innocent man in the back? The spiral of ruin that would have ensued... no. She couldn't handle it. Because Liv had been terrified of having another parent slip from the deep end, she eliminated the only catalyst: his friend.
"No, I can't do this. If they find out, I'll lose my job, I'll be taken to jail!"
Him too? Would another man find his way into a life in and out of prison, always capturing the hearts of young girls trying to find love? Maybe Liv had told herself that she was only trying to protect them, but there too, she had been afraid. What if he told? Could Liv suffer through the ridicule, the court hearings, the therapists, the disappointed and distraught looks of her father? Was she supposed to suffer as penance for one man's mistakes? Ludicrous. No man would drag her down with them, and if it would only be that hate, that fear of being contained that preserved her, Liv was prepared to bear any sin.
"I was prepared to love you through it all, so why, Isadora? I only loved you."
Liv felt the scream coming from within her, echoing around her mind in mutilation and stress. Love, love took everything from her. Death, suffering, it was all the same in her eyes. And as long as she stayed one step ahead, no one could ever force love onto her.
A born coward knows only one thing: Preserve yourself.
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